I still haven't finished Harry Potter 7. I've been taking my dear old time, I don't like to rush. I like to slow things down, sleep for 14 hours, stand around doing nothing, or draw a picture.....I don't have anywhere to go, anyone to meet, the only way I get away from my house is riding my bike to martial arts, but other than that, I barely do anything. Makes me feel useless. Maybe I am useless. So far I have no purpose. I may have one later in my life, but now I'm just some sulky teenager, who lurks around in the shadows of the house, dreaming about what life could be like. Growing extremely anxious about the upcoming concert, trying to calm myself down, trying to tell myself that I probably won't be able to get backstage.......it's a fifty fifty chance. If I do, I'll be lucky not to have a heartattack by that point. What can you expect? I'm not that outgoing. I don't 'live like there's no tomorrow', I try to make my motto be 'you've only got one life to live', trying to be reckless, daring, but both seem impossible. Maybe I need to hang out with people my age again. My friend just emailed me, saying she might be able to hang out with me next week, which just lifted my spirits a bunch. I want to feel like my old self again......
Monday, July 30, 2007
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Funny Stuff & Conversation
You know what I've noticed? Now a days, people think that making fun of others is funny. And you know what? It sure as hell is. Of course it's not nice but nice doesn't seem to matter. Sometimes people can crack a funny joke without being racist, sexist, or just plain sick, but I've noticed that alot of comedians normally can't make up something funny without putting someone else down. Now, if someone at school said something that put ME down, I'd kick their ass, but other people can be more sensitive, and whooping someone's ass isn't exactly the first thing that comes to mind. I'm not saying I care, I'm mainly saying that humans are a sick, greedy, and selfish type of life form. Maybe even the sickest life form there is, and that's giving alot of credit to some of those animals out there that eat each other. Sure, there are cannibals, but not many these days. Or any at all for that matter. I don't get out as much, you know?
And having a sense of humor is important when making conversation, frankly, if one person is talking to the other and that person can make a racist joke that makes the other person laugh, they don't care, as long as the other person thinks there funny. And I'm not expert on conversation, to tell you, I suck at conversation, and most of the time, the person I'm talking to sucks at conversation as well, which leads up to one thing: a very akward silence.
For example:
Me: Hey
Person: Hi
Me: What's up?
Person: Nuthin
Me: Cool (?)
Person: Yeah.
Me: Yeah.
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Me: Is that all you have to say?
Person: What?
Me: Never mind.....
I can have a perfect conversation with myself, since I know EXACTLY what to say and exactly how to respond to my own questions and comments. But when talking to someone else my age (older people and younger people can go on for a while, but teenagers can be just plain stupid sometimes), the conversation normally lasts for five seconds. And when a good conversation DOES start, it normally starts with making fun of that fat kid in gym class, who breaks into a sweat after walking one lap. If there were SOME way to make conversation without involving stuff like that, then......well, technically that's impossible, now that I look at it, if the person I'm talking to gets bored, then I start saying random funny stuff I stole from comedians on Comedy Central, until they start laughing and get in the talking mood again. Other times, if I make fun of and do impressions of my mom, people start laughing, most of my humor is formed around jokes of my mom menopausing and screaming about yogurt.
I think I got my point out to all of you Americans....and other people, so I thank you for listening to me and remind you to stay in school and don't drink and drive.
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Counter....and yes, a bunch of other crap
I decided to put a counter at the bottom of the page so I could see if anyone ever views my blog. Since last night, no one has. The only one who has viewed it is me. Has ANYONE ever read my blog? Probably not, I didn't put the url out anywhere, someone might have stumbled across it by accident, but the chances of that EVER happening are one out of five.
Well, so far I'm only a seventh of the way through my Harry Potter book, so I probably won't finish it today, and probably not tomorrow either. It seems to me that I've become a slow reader. During the school year, I barely had time to pick up a book (unless it was manga) and it took me from November to May to finish the Fellowship of The Ring, the most BORING book I have read in ages, I continuely stopped and read something else, then I'd go back to it and read it until I grew bored again. Things started to get a bit more exciting around the time Gandalf was killed, but before that, the only damn thing anyone did was walk and report seeing something in the shadows. I have to say, I liked the Hobbit alot better. It was MUCH more exciting. Of course I'm slowly traveling off-topic, but ever since Rome (alot of things have happened 'since Rome') I have the tendency to drift off to to lala land.
And whoever invented the kit-kat bar is GENIUS, pure genius......yum.....
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Tuesday, July 24, 2007
One-X
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I can't think of a freakin' title........and other crap
Well, I haven't writen in the past several days only because this blog has been the last thing on my mind. Not that I'm busy or anything, it's just that I haven't felt any need to write. My mom is now letting me go back to kung-fu; yesturday was the first time I've gone to the dojo in over a month. Oh, and I finally got the Harry Potter book. I thought my dad was going to get it for me while I went to Canada with Hannah, but apparently he was too busy, and so, I got it from borders today, three days after it came out (I think...). I already know who dies of course, but I'm dying to know what exactly happens and how Voldemort is defeated. Yes, I am a loyal Harry Potter fan, and have been since I was six. And now, I got a Deathly Hallows poster that I got with the book. It's on my left wall, and it's the exact picture that's on the American cover (AND it's my second Harry Potter poster, the other one's on the wall right of me, a movie poster from the Prisoner of Azkaban, I got it out of some Bop or Tiger Beat magizine.......)
So for the next day, I will be gluing myself to that book, to find out exactly what happens. And yes, I say a day, because I will most likely finish it tomorrow, seeing that I have nothing better to do.
Another thing that happened since I last wrote was me going to Canada. I went with Hannah to a little island called Pelee, where her and her family have a cottage located on the shore of Lake Erie. We only stayed there for a day and a half, meaning in that time, we did everything that you could possibly do in a day on Pelee. Which involed a lot of swimming, ten miles of bike riding, and of course the three full hours of jetskiing and tubing. Oh, and I nearly killed myself on that jetski. There was only one, that is kept in the garage of the cottage, and a complete pain to pull out and into the water (I won't describe it, but it was a heck of a work out). Hannah showed me how it worked, and we went on it together for about an hour, taking turns driving and jumping HUGE waves. When I was on my own, I didn't have Hannah behind me telling me to slow down, so I went completely crazy, going as fast as I could over killer waves, slamming back down, nearly killing myself and the jetski, but having fun and laughing crazily the entire time. I knew God didn't plan for me to die in a jetski accident, so I threw all caution to the wind and let him deal with the rest (how I knew this....I don't know exactly....my relationship with God is weird).
The worst thing about Pelee, was the sunburn. I forgot about sunblock, and I spent so much time in the water, mainly because I LOVE the lake, it's like a giant swimming pool. And the WORST part about the worst thing about Pelee, is that when sunburn goes away it turns into........
A TAN.
I HATE TANS.
-shudders-
I gave up on wearing my sweater everywhere, hiding in the sun, and acting like a complete emo-vampire-goth in Rome, but still, I have that 'vibe' the emo-vampire-goth vibe, and I still hate getting tan and hate going out in the sun, but sometimes, it can't be avoided. At least I can go out in the sun without driving myself crazy, I got over that in Rome (before if I was out in the sun longer than a half-an-hour, I would grow angry and frustrated, which slowed me down a bit when it came to track). I loved the weather in France, it was always wet and cold, which is the kind of weather I like the most.
Wellllllllllllllllllllll..............
I'm going to get on with my life, go on myspace, take a shower, glue myself to that book, watch the Colbert Report on Comedy Central at ten or eleven thirty, and get on with my life, so good bye, farewell, so long, whatever, I'm just going to leave you now.
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Friday, July 20, 2007
HARRY POTTER! And other crap.......
It's coming. In about three hours. It'll come, and I'm ready. I already know who dies, I was TEMPTED to read those spoilers. But I did. I don't know if they where true, but if they where, then all Harry fans, start dancing and throw away your plans to murder J.K. Rowling.
Well, other than that, I get to go to CANADA! My friend Hannah invited me. Oh yeah. And my dad was nice enough to volunteer to go pick up number seven for me. I got a gift card with 'Deathly Hallows' right on it. Yeah baby.
Well, other then that......I need a life. I got my own FanFic yesturday, so now I'm writing a story. Fun fun. I've had writers block forever. Now I'm writing a story, and I WILL NOT STOP! At any cost. I'll give you the link to my profile later maybe.
Another good thing- my computer stopped blocking myspace.
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
I'll give you the link to my profile later maybe. ;)
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Saturday, July 14, 2007
New Neighbors and other crap
Well, I've arrived home, back to my stinkin' country and boiling weather. I miss Europe already............of course I missed all my friends here, and am DYING to hear what I missed in the past month.
-stares Amber down-
PICK UP YOU DAMN CELL PHONE!
You better not have done something incredibly stupid and reckless while I was gone....I can think of a few things you might have done..........OHMYGODJUSTPICKUPYOURPHONE!
Blah.
The flight back was a drag, my mom's breath stunk up the entire plane, so I dumped an entire pack of tic-tacs into her hand and told her it would help. It didn't. Oh well. The flights over, and just yesturday I was standing in France watching people blow off fireworks and light themselves on fire. It made up for missing the 4th of July, I guess.
Other then that, I FINALLY became a teenager on July 11th, so now, whenever someone asks me how old I am, I can stand up, puff up my chest, and in the deepest voice say,
I AM THIRTEEN!
Well, not really.
Our neighbors sold their house.
Which would make the next neighbors about the tenth we've ever had.
I'm interested in who it may be.
The sign went up last weekend, so we may have a while yet till we know exactly who's gonna move in.
Other than that, I have been up for at least 24 hours due to the time change, so I will be off to bed and out in less than five minutes.
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