Last post of 2007

I dedicate this post to 2007, the year that supposively, according to the movie Time Machine, was supposed to be the year the moon fell from the sky, destroying almost all proof of human existence as we know it. Well, that never happened, but the year is not over yet (it is in Australia and other parts of the world, but not in the US at least), so we can still expect it may happen.
So, I've decided to go over the highlights of my year, detailing them by the month.
Happy New Year!


January:
I discover YouTube, make an account, and begin to create videos.
Amber's birthday party, we become good friends.
I try unsuccessfully to learn my guitar on my own.
My obsession over Brendon Urie continues.

Febuary:
I go to Claires and get my infamous 'I Have Issues' wristband, wearing it everyday up till this point.
I run out into the snow in my bathing suit.
I start my guitar lessons.
I begin to get into different types of music.

March:
Many, many snow days. Stupid global warming.

April:
My obsession for Brendon Urie is replaced with Gerard Way.
I am now aloud to put posters up in my room, and therefore, go crazy.
I take a trip over spring break to North Carolina.
I discover the Twilight series by Stephenie Meyer, and generally fall in love with it.
Michael and I supposively hate each other.

May:
Social Studies fair. I present my project on Medieval Knights.
Berkley Days Carnival, I get a case of motion sickness and am forced to watch Amber make out with Ian on a park bench.
Repetitive calls in to 89X for Projekt Revolution tickets.

June:
I start my blog.
School ends.
I travel to Europe for my month trip.

July:
I turn 13.
I get lost in a French city.
I arrive back to the US.
I continue my blog.
Jogging daily.

August:
For the first time in months I see my school mates at a pool party at Katie's house.
Michael and I become friends again.
School begins.

September:
'The Posse' is formed.
I skip a degree in kung-fu and become a yellow sash.
We make a commercial for Vault for our music class.
Todd begins to act different around me.

October:
Todd asks me out on the 19th (yes I still remember, no, shut up)
I pass the lohan test at kung-fu, becoming the only girl in it.
The Fall Festival the same night, I discover the more romantic side of Todd.
Halloween party, trick or treating, Todd and Doni fighting (over me *cough*)

November:
Relationships become strained, Michael and I grow closer.
Amber and I become a bit hostile.
Amber and I get in fight at lunch.
I'm out of the posse.
I've sprouted a brain.

December:
Todd gets mad.
Todd breaks up with me.
Todd leaves me for a little female dog.
Todd thinks that I'm in love with Michael.
Todd is a dumbass.
I form my own posse.
I've never been happier.
Few words are exchanged between me and 'the enemy'
The enemy calls me and complains.
The enemy begins to talk.
The enemy is now the alli?
Winter break.
Christmas.
The idea to form a new YouTube account.
I decide to pick up on writing my book.
I sit here typing.
I reflect on the year, smile, and say "Thank GOD it's over."


That's it. As far as I can remember. My memory is limited, and the beginning months of this year are harder to recall. But, it's been a good year. Next year will be even better.
>=)

Gifts And Curses

Mary belongs to the words of a song.
I try to be strong for her,
try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before?
I was sure.
(She is the one), but I have a purpose,
(she is the one), and I have to fight this,
(she is the one), a villian I can't knock down.
I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
still I will always fight on for you.
Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her,
above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below,
down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go,
would she know?
(She is the one), all that I wanted,
(she is the one), and I will be haunted,
(she is the one), this gift is my curse for now.
I see your face with every punch I take
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say, Still I will always fight on for you. Fight on for you ...

(by Yellowcard)

Stupid

Love is so stupid. I hate people. But this song always makes me feel happy.

Snow!

The ground is COVERED with snow. I mean it. No grass sticking out, or any sign of color, just white, with translucent icicles hanging from the trees, sunlight reflecting off of its cold, wet surface, sending rays of light shimmering onto the snow, sparkling blindly. This is why winter is my favorite season. That, and of course the joy of Christmas. Sure there's the Christmas rush, the constant commute, the blinding blizzard snow, the last minute scramble to buy gifts, relatives, and all that other gobbledygook, but the spirit and feeling of the season is AMAZING. I mean it. We just decorated the tree yesturday, and now it looks absolutely magnificent. With the accumulating eight inches of snow outside, I feel right into the holiday spirit. I really hope that school'll be called off tomorrow, then I can finish off my Christmas shopping. I just need some stocking stuffers and what not. I don't have as much money as an adult has, but I have enough to spare for a few decent gifts for my family and friends (and me. I'm spending my $25 Christmas bonus on myself for sure.)
Part of my Christmas gift wishes have already been filled. I kinda cheated on the stocking part, I'm ashamed to say.
I built a snow fort about two hours ago, too. The snow isn't great for packing, but I had fun with it anyway. I'm going to get as much enjoyment out of it as possible. It's an opportunity that millions of unique snowflakes fall to the ground, and all people do is shovel them out of their way, thinking that they're a nuisance. But really, they are truely beautiful.

Stratego

hmmmmm.....
So the holidays are quickly approaching, aren't they? It reminds me that I still have to do some more Christmas shopping...
Well, that can wait for now.
I hate people. They're stupid. Some of them are okay, but a majority of them I could do without for the rest of my life. It's just the way they act, the way they are, and everything else about them that gets to me. They aren't reasonable, they don't care much for each other, they kill each other, emotionally and physically, and try to bring others down. If everyone had the personality of a dog, maybe life would be better. But dogs aren't exactly intellectual....but I can bet you they have more common sense.
I hate being a teenager, especially. Teenagers are just stupid. They don't know what emotions are, and throw around love and hate WAAY to much. They just go on with life like it's some sort of game, like Stratego.
And if I were in Stratego, I think I would like to be either a bomb or a spy. Everyone around me would just be all the other pieces. Actually, I'll be the bomb. Then when people touched me, I'd blow up. I wouldn't mind that.

Gobbledygook

It's brilliant!
I've been looking for a new blogger title, and I couldn't think of one for the longest time. Then, suddenly, I remembered how ridiculous this entire world was, and all of humanity, and decided to change my blog's name to 'Gobbledygook'. I first heard it when I was reading Bartimaus, and I thought: 'what a shweet word...' and it was my favorite thing to say from that day forward. So now, all I need to do is make a cruddy header in paint, and it will be confirmed.

For some reason, I now enjoy seeing people in pain. Maybe it's because I've put myself through alot, and I want others to feel the same way I did. Right now I kinda feel like that...with my ex. I can tell by the way that he ignores me and pretty much refuses to look at me that he dislikes me. Deal with it, then. It makes me smile. I have major problems. Eric knows that.

-crazy smile-

Listening to Linkin Park makes me feel like doing something peccant.

And now that the song has changed, I'm semi-normal again. Anyway, I've decided that I'm going to start making YouTube videos again. I was forced into remission because of my parents' complaints, but now I've devised a way to make videos without getting yelled at. It's just a matter if I actually show my face in my videos or if my friends do. If I don't, then my parents are completely fine with it. So I can still use my voice, and now problems will evolve.

But I'm sure they wouldn't be too happy with me if they found out about my blog....let's hope that doesn't happen soon....

If You C Jordan

I have a story

A bitter anthem

For everyone to hear

About this kid who just don't like me

And that's a solid fact

They say he's hunting me

And as you see I'm all swelled up with fear

'Cuz I can't get him off my back

Chorus:

If you see Jordan

He makes me sick

High schools over

And you still won't quit

You tried to fight me down at Tyler's beach

And man I think that's great

You nearly cried and said to yell at you

Like I do at all the girls

Then you drove home real quick

Did you make it in time to.........

There's one too many of you in this world

Chorus

You say its chivalry

But it's jealousy that lead us to this song

Won't play it often

Just at least until you're gone

You'll stop at nothing but the real thing

And everything up to that's pretend

You tried to brainwash all my friends

Chorus

F*ck you Jordan

You make me sick

High schools over

I don't care if you die your hair

You'll always be a little read head b*tch.

(by Something Corporate)

Bleeding, yet happy

Well....my boyfriend and I are over....but he's incredibly stupid just by what he wrote in the note he gave me. Maybe I was the one to pick this fight, but if I didn't, then this entire thing would be even more awkward. God, I can't believe how idiotic I've been...I'm becoming a freakin' teenager....
I'm done with guys now. I'll be hitting at the two hot guys at my dojo now, and obsessing over some famous celebrity that's most likely already married. That's how my life was before this mess. I feel happier now. More free, ya know? Being single is awesome. WOO!
Love is stupid. The word 'love' is thrown around so much, it's almost lost it's meaning. Love is way more deep then what people think. As a matter of fact, I'm in no position to be talking about love like that. People think love is about sex, and they abuse it entirely. It leads to unwanted pregnancies, divorces, and ruined relationships. And it also could ruin your life and make you believe your worthless, lowering your self esteem. Or, like it did for me, make you suicidal for fifteen minutes, then make you feel happy for the rest of the day.
Well, that's life, and it's not fair. I'm going to put the lyrics to the song that I believe was made just for AMBER! I'll censor it...