Take control of the atmosphere

Being a teenager is weird. I was watching the Secret Life about fifteen minutes ago, and wondering if teenagers really do act like that. Or it's either just bad acting. I think the third episode was the only really good one. This one was kind of....stupid. Especially the whole issue with Grace and trying to defend herself with the broken bottle. What kind of news station plays that over and over again? You want something interesting? Film a dark alley in Detroit. That sounds kind of harsh.....but it's the first comparison that comes to mind for me.
I felt really...light today. Like everything slowed down and the whole world was at peace. Like when I stuck my fingers out the window and felt the silky air, tingly and soft. It felt like I was high...off of life.
It lasted about two hours. Now I feel the same. Confused, slightly I guess. Just the same old same old worry. Nothing new at all.
Staying strong is hard. (my thoughts are skipping around, I know) I was thinking yesterday about being a woman. I mean, it's hard holding yourself up high especially when you're a woman. It's harder to get respect. It's hard not to feel...so much. It's overwhelming. I guess it's something that has gone on for a while. I mean, when you're a woman, it seems like men always have one more advantage. And you always hear about the damsel in distress. Why not the dude in distress? Discrimination is hard too. And I get a lot of shit like anyone else. I might be just walking, and I'll get something thrown at me. It pisses me off. I hate how I can barely walk out of my own house.
And I was thinking, just about how God created man from the earth, and than created woman from the man's bones. That doesn't mean we're inferior.
I think God created woman like that because he knew we could handle the discrimination. He new that there would always be a fight between the two genders. He knew he would have to prepare us. We're not inferior, we're just the same as anyone else. He knew we'd be able to handle it better. I'm not saying anything like I'm biased, but I just think that it's hard...but it's something every woman has to put up with. If you don't, you're not going to make it far.
A bit of a look into what I've been feeling for the past few days. And amazingly...after the 100 degree weather, the humidity and horrible weather, I feel cold. I think I'll get a sweater...