A day at IA

Just a little blurb I decided to do, a little about how a spend my life as school. Some times interesting things happen, sometimes days are bland. Ya never know.

Anywhere between 3:00AM to 6:30AM
-Get up painfully
-Study for some sort of test/quiz painfully
-Do everything else that normal people do in the morning painfully (eat, brush teeth, scratch self, etc.)
7:00AM-7:45AM
-go to school, wander the halls, search for people I know. Go to first period and fool around
7:45-9:15AM
Speech or Art class, depending on the day, try to focus
Somewhere in between
Chat, eat, drink, swear, grab books, pee, trip, fall, push, shove, run, scream, yell, attack, die
9:25-10:50AM
Biology or Math, DOODLE TIME!
10:50AM-12:20PM
French or World Studies, prayforfood,prayforfood,prayforfood
12:20-1:05PM
LUNCHHH! Fortunately IA has a large fatty selection of multi-million calorie foods.
1:05-2:35PM
Last block, Literature or Physics, listen to ADD/OCD teacher talk on about newest video games and his new cat calender. Sleep.
2:35-3:30PM
"Do homework" HAHAHAHAHA
3:30-7:00PM
Drive home, work, go to kung fu, eat
7:00-10:30PM(or 1:00AM on a bad day)
Study thy ass off, working on flashcards and all that crap. Die from anxiety and worry. Pray that I do well and that all my ''A"s STAY "A"s. Call a friend while getting distracted. Realize how stupid of an idea that was and study 2343797 times as much.

After a short slept night...
WAKE UP AND DO IT AGAIN!


So that's basically how things go for me at school. I'm not a bad student either. Right now I'm getting really good grades, so I'm all pumped. But it's hard. I'm not lying when I say that International Academy is hard. An over achievers dream.

Ummph...

(How's that for a creative title?)
Idon'tfeelliketalkingorpressingthegoddamnspacebar,thestupidassthingdownbelowmyfingers.
But I will.
I don't feel like getting up in the morning, only to see that the clock reads 5:30 AM.
But I will.
I don't want to go home and study for my freaking math quiz, and think about how bad I might have down on my biology quiz.
But I will.
I don't want to have to give some kid these notes from all the classes he missed.
But I will.
I don't want to have to talk to anyone again, or deal with anyone, or face anyone, or see anyone.
But I will.
I don't want to wait, I want everything NOW, I don't want to wait for it to happen later, I want it NOW.
But I will.
I don't want to think about how I might have been able to change things before they ended up like this.
But I will.

Because everything right now is just a mess, and I feel hurt, and I feel happy, and I feel upset, and I feel sad, and I want to cry, and I want to laugh, and I want to frown, but I just keep smiling. I want something to happen, something that can reverse the change, something that can bring things back to the way they were. I want things to be right. But what if this is right? What if things are supposed to happen this way, and that it'll all turn out all right, maybe not the way I want it, or maybe exactly the way I want it, but maybe it will just all turn out.

I don't even want to be ALIVE right now.
But I'll just keep on living anyway.