Alive, Me Again

I just want to feel

Whole

I just want to feel

Alive

I'm so damn sick

Of this

I want to be real

Again

.

I want to taste

The world at my lips

I want to feel the warmth

On my finger tips

I want to see

Places and faces new to me

I want to hear

My healed heart beating

.

He is nothing

Who is he?

He's faceless

I'm not his

And he's not mine

He hurt me so much

Not even time

Could repair

What I felt

.

I was nowhere

I was nothing

But I'm real

And I'm everything

And I remember

When he told me

"You're so beautiful"

Hell yeah

I know I am

She'll never be

As good as I was

To you

.

Don't you dare replace me

I'm the greatest you'll ever get

Guess ya screwed that up

It sucks when you lose the best

.

So I'll let down my hair

Get the hell out of here

Here in this grave you dug

And here where you left me to rot

Rot away in your claws

I thought you were amazing

Now I can see all your flaws

.

Do you understand?

No, you sure don't

I can see it

In your eyes

A pitiful attempt

At innocence

Was I blind to it?

I should have known

Better then this

.

And YOU should have

Filled your shoes

Been a man

The best that you can

But you're just a boy

A bit my junior

With a cute

Mushroom cut

And with some pretty

Green eyes

And a nice

manly body

And a handsome

Smile

All of them were mine

Was it worth my while?

Nope.

Did I screw it up?

Nuh-uh

You did my hun

.

And I don't meant to point

And I don't mean to stare

But you'll never know

How GOOD it feels

Just to let this out

Now that its over