Children

When you grow older, you seem to finally get the hang of what's going on around you. Those passive looks, those quick glances, the empty silences dripping with anticipation, everything that you just took for 'grown-up stuff' makes sense. You can know what everyone is thinking, what everyone is feeling, and you don't even have to ask.
I wish I could stay hidden behind the mask of childhood. Who wouldn't want to be oblivious? Being oblivious to the world that hangs around is the ability to be thankful for things that really should matter. But if we are so oblivious to everything, do we forget to see that simple beauty? Do our lives become so confused that we can't even see beyond our own noses?
What if everyone was like a child? We would be no where. We would lack in maturity. Nothing would get done without the intuitive sense and wisdom you gain once you grow older.
But I really do think that childrens' intelligence can go beyond that of an adult. Because, when you are young, you really do see things that matter. Children aren't busy, are never troubled, and are always having fun; there is nothing that can be expected to come out of a child's mouth. As soon as you get older, you realize how boring life really can be. I really don't understand why being so carefree is so hard...

Should Have Done this Earlier...But, Recap!

Recap of the year, that is! All the major events and ridiculously stupid things that I did as a thirteen and fourteen year old. I did this last year...didn't I? TRADITION! Of course, it's sixteen days in, but what the hell! Mine as well start now....

January
I start life at school slowly again, remaking alliances and fitting back in.

February
Valentine's Day comes along...I get about seven carnations, and my valentine is Tristan.

March
What happened? I really don't remember. Just that school was ending fast, and I wanted to make it last.

April
Frantic studying for the IA entrance exam. I take it, wait for the answer, and to my surprise and happiness, I get in. This was a pretty good month for me.

May
Tristan asks me out. I say yes. The end of the year trip begins, and it's a blast.

June
Spend about three days in Chicago. The best three days of my life. I have to admit, I was having a lot of fun. I go to Florida for two weeks and get my scuba diving certification. Also, my brother gets married. I dance with all his drunk friends, and finally I might get a niece or a nephew.

July
I run away a day before my birthday because of a fight I got in with my mom. I run to my dojo and meditate. I get grounded the next day. I also go to Point Pelee with Gaby, and we have a blast.

August
The month of mistakes. Why did I do any of it, I don't know. The dream cruise comes along. And then finally, school starts. High school. I'm scared, afraid, and I don't belong.

September
I stare at the phone and scream. I cry. I'm probably in worse conditions then I have ever been in. I haven't really been broken like this before. I don't even recover by the end of the month. Nothing will be the same again.

October
I visit the biggest haunted house in the world with Gaby and Michael. It wasn't too bad. Went trick or treating with them later. I feel a bit better.

November
Charity Ball on the 8th, otherwise known as IA's homecoming. I've never had so much fun at a dance. I don't have to worry, and I'm so carefree. I also start to like someone new...

December
One of my best friends seriously hurts herself...I'm devastated.
I visit California, away from the freezing cold weather. I also decide that I love photography. And that airplanes are scary.

WOO! So that's my life in a nut shell. Yep. You cared enough to get this far.